Canoville was Chelsea's first black first-team player, making his debut in 1982 But as he warmed up on the touchline, his own supporters began chanting 'We don't want the nigger!' The racist bile continued whenever he played, but within a year he had won over the terraces with his explosive pace and skill Canoville fell out with the Chelsea board and moved to Reading in 1986, where injury suddenly ended his career at the age of 24 This started a downward spiral including the death of his baby in his arms, two bouts of life-threatening lymph cancer, drug abuse and homelessness But Canoville fought back In this book, Paul explains why, despite everything, he is more positive than ever and has remained a fervent Chelsea fan all his life