Born in Germany during World War II, a beautiful young fatherless child picks flowers on the battlefield. At age four she befriends the pillaging Russian soldiers, and every man for years to come will appear as both father figure and invader. War, sexual abuse, and class insecurity awakens an extraordinary defense mechanism in the young girl. With laser-like attention to detail, she searches with searing honesty for meaning and compassion. Professionally trained in the exacting art of being a German housekeeper, she learns the lessons, but never conforms to a normal home life. Four husbands, many lovers, friendships with icons of a counter culture, years in prison, years of painting astounding abstract art and playing abstract meditative music - and within every moment she finds the keys to a profound spiritual awareness.

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This book is a tribute to the power of art to maintain and enlarge the human spirit. Her life is full or joy and terrible times, love and fear, liberation and desperation, and ultimately uplifting and powerful. Wonder to read, meaningful to reread.

- James Fadiman, Co-Founder of the Institute of Transpersonal Psychology

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Contact with Marlis, in person or through her art or literary works is expanding for everyone, and very healing for many.

- Leonard Orr, Founder of the Rebirthing Movement

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Endearing, sensitive and precious. This book will open eyes and tear asunder illusions.

- Dr. Zaida Rivene, Naturopathic Physician